Reflective Unit Evaluation

 

At the end of this course unit, Expressing my Vision through photography still seems overly ambitious. As being the introductional unit studying at OCA, it was not only about photography, it was about learning and getting familiar with the learning principles at OCA just as much. Learning to understand that the course-book is merely a guide on a route I need to set out myself. The course only tries to let me look around in the vast landscape of photography and most interesting directions as a suggestion of a possible journey; my tutor acts mostly as an essential mirror.

The world has changed drastically after starting and during this course-unit, so did probably my vision on the world, hence, expressing this new vision is hardly doable. Everything needs to be placed in new perspective constantly; it almost seems. What is my vision, what is the purpose of expressing it, should there be a purpose, and what will my vision be tomorrow?

Giving substance to my learning and development route perhaps lead me to learn more about myself then about photography. Critical thinking and indeed reflecting needs intensive reading and time to cogitate,  to form an idea, an opinion,  a vision. Always questioning, always searching for answers, my tutor called me slightly heavyhanded, he could be correct, but not all negative, it’s a drive to learn and question. To me photography is much more a vessel developing a balanced vision than the other way around—a method to learn and grow personally.  To grab interesting readings on art, history, philosophy or poetry and, forced by the course pressure and slight limiting structure, try to form it into something cohesive and condensed drives me to process the information intensively, much more then I would otherwise. Always with new questions, new learning and continuing curiosity.

As the main learning outcome, it should be not about what others expect formally, but what has been added to me personally.  With some self-reflective analytics, this is trying to be more meaningful in creation. Not specifically a story, but intentional, with purpose, so you wish, with vision. The turning point for this awareness was after the suggested reading by my tutor, pushing exactly the right buttons, of the work King’s Landing by George Miles, Waffenruhe by Michael Schmidt and American Power by Mitch Epstein. The purpose of their work is to make a statement, tell a story or visualize a thought, address a situation. Not specifically with ideology in mind, although it helps apparently. Strangely though, their work is mainly without people. More ambience orientated then direct human emotion, I somehow miss a biological element and therefore, identifiable, connectable emotion?

Although my later assignments and work during this course-unit followed this functional and contemplated idea more, especially during “Photography is Simple”, other work connected more on emotional levels. I ended up trying to find a balance between purpose and function on one side and emotion and connection to the other.

This combined intentional conceptual idea felt most profound at the exercise and rework/reselection of “The Distance Between Us” which I finalized latest in this unit (how unforeseen an appropriate title in this Corona-Virus distancing society). Finally, during this exercise, my intentions seemed to reflect on the result. Images that intentionally depict my idea of the distance, or the closeness towards the subject, our interaction and emotion.

Overall an exceptional fist course-unit period, life-changing in many ways, back to the course-readings and rhythm is always comforting in all these hectic recent months and uncertain future.